It's hard to care about (or focus on, really) anything other than having a new sweetie. Everything else is so tenuous right now, like my financial situation, that it's hard to feel sustainable enough to plan ahead. But this is what I have, and I am sure I can get organized enough. I just need to keep things in balance and stay disciplined, not get distracted dancing to the radio, not smoke, and eat normally, and everything will be just fine. I spent the whole weekend with him and I am patient about seeing him again. I just seem to think of almost nothing else. I think of everything else in relation to him. There is so much potential. It spreads outward and affects every thought about my life that I have had!

But then I feel so pathetic because I wait all day to get K at the bus and I end up late anyway. Somehow I manage to pull off most things despite my lameness, though. I am so lucky. I am so grateful too!

In some ways I feel like our relationship has become based on sex. That could be a worry. But the 3 days over which I fell in love with him, we never spent a moment alone and it was all pretty innocent. So. ? I think it is okay. We mutually find out new information about each other that makes it better and better. For example, he doesn't use deodorant, which I think is awesome. I mean, the BO screening took place on night one that we hugged and danced, by the fire, and it was fine. What this means is that I can nibble his armpits all I want with no gross chemicals in my mouth. I know, it may be a little bit freaky, but I have been into arm pits with a couple of my boyfriends, but they all used deodorant or otherwise prevented me from having my way. So, it's pretty special. I do feel a little bit impatient for the time when we have known each other for a long time. I can't wait!

We went dancing at my usual club, and he danced with me. It was really easy. I could wander away with no drama, and he danced with me easily. I wonder if he would have been jealous had he seen me dancing with Alex. Almost certainly. We have not talked about that kind of thing. It's hard to explain how fully he has my heart but still explain that I may want to be physical with other people if the opportunity comes up. Like Ben. Ben and I dance together in an entirely different way, often with no contact, but it may still make him jealous if he were to see it. From our few conversations broaching the topic of poly/monogamy, it sounds like it may be an issue. His astrological chart indicates some tendency toward jealousy. I don't want to mess anything up that way, but historically I always have. I am still amazed that he just dances with me. I never took a man I was seeing to a club and had it turn out good*.

It seems unusual that I want to go see him at his place. I think a big part of it is his friends/roommates over there. I need to compile a kit of items to make myself comfy over there, but the geographical location is very nice, and conveniently located (not WRT my house). The big issue is the potential for traffic. It isn't always trafficky, but it could happen any time and completely derail timed plans. He has a trampoline and two cats. One is a kitten. Mona is getting lots of exposure to cats, and that is a good thing. She's doing well. I love how he welcomes Mona despite the possibly upset to his cats. They really take care of themselves though. The older male gave Mona bloody nose the first day. She wants to be careful now, I think.

He does not like photos of himself. I can see why-- they don't really capture how he looks to me. Still, I want some fresh ones.